"Oh, I don't know..."

Usually when I write this blog I feel like I have something to say, I feel "moved" if you will. Unfortunately I have not had this feeling in a while. I suppose that is why I have not written anything. This is not to say that nothing is happening, on the contrary the opposite is quite true. When I sit down and think about it I believe that the issue must be de-sensitization. When I first started here everything was new. I tried not to have any pre-conceived notions about what I would see and experience so at every juncture, at every turn of events I saw things for the first time. I would not say that I was surprised, but there was a definite feeling of wonder. I f0und myself constantly thinking, "oh, that is how is it." I don't really know what I am trying to say, but there it is.

Last weekend I went back to Boston College to see some of my friends. It was great to get back "home" and hang out with some familiar faces. It was the 15th Reunion of the Heightsmen so I got to see everyone from that group as well. I am glad it was so easy to slip back into the college lifestyle, but maybe that's because I didn't have any classes to attend or papers to write. It's funny how different that lifestyle is and again I must say that throughout this year I must have been de-sensitized because as I came back here I felt as though this was home. Indeed I suppose it truly is, at least for now. The only thing that has been hard is that I have had a cold for two weeks now (which means it most likely is not a cold). I could kick myself for not seeing the free doctor last Friday, who happens to come every two weeks. What an idiot.

Other than that, Homeless Court is this Friday. In the past I would have been thinking about it a lot, but going along with our theme here, it doesn't get me that excited (of course I still realize it's a great thing). What makes it interesting now is that other people, the guys, get pretty crazy. They start hearing that there is a court where they can get all their cases dismissed and it's going on right here this Friday. Sounds too good to be true. Well, in a sense it is. People cannot just sign up today and see the judge on Friday. They can sign up now, write a personal letter, get documentation and have us fill out a progress report and in most cases the judge will be more than happy to see them in April. But of course this is not good enough. Things need to happen now. Or it must be that for some reason I am trying to slow the process down because I have some issue with one of the guys. All I can do is laugh, but that does not go over too well either because then I am laughing at other peoples' problems. No win.

Things are cool though. We are starting a little mentoring program in which we have weekly meetings with the guys who volunteer here. I am doing a lot of work for it and am going to facilitate some of the first meetings. I get to research topics of discussion and make some plans for the meetings, which I have found I really enjoy doing. I look forward to sitting down with the guys and just talking about regular things and fun things. I am sure there will be more to say in the future.